Identity Memoirs Exits Letters

Swallow me and spit me out
for hating you I'l shout out loud
seeing you it kills me now
no I don't cry on the outside somehow

Cold Starry night.


Yep. Thats me.
Hello. My name is Nur Idayu Bte Abdul Rahman. 14 goin' 15.
30th DEC 1994
Capricorn
Singapore
quake4_cloud@hotmail.com(MSN&FRIENDSTER). Music and Art is her life.
A Rapper,Dancer,B-Girl,Composer,Lyricist,Pianist.Guitarist.
A Little bit of tomboy but still have my girl me. Dont really give a damn about haters,backstabbers and etc(s).
Don't mess with my loved ones or you'll be messin' with me.
Sounds like im tryin' to be a big shot but NO.
Those who are close with me..Knows me very well in terms of fighting..
Loves :
Family = Mama,Daddy,Sister,Brother,Myself,Kor. Bestfriend = Aisyah. Him&Him = ED. Myself. =P
EDWARD CULLEN IS MINE. HEHE XD


I love goth & emo too. Dont ask me why.. Its my Vampire Bloodline. heh. ;D

yeah...Tonight gonna be a long post..I think..
haiishh..ppl are putting pressure at me...
I felt left out you knoe..In sch...Everywhere I go..
I will ALWAYS be solo...ALWAYS. In sch.
My friends are paired up as in.
Hanis,Aini...Hayati,Sheila...Nurul,Eli...
..................Idayu.....................................
alone...
hahaha...nice rite?
Men. really...Its like...I want to hangout with em..But
I will always felt like Im odd...IM ONE ODD OUT..
hahah..Idayu's ODD..
lolz
be urself day cool you knoe!
I collapse during napfa.Injured my whole right side of the body.
And everybody went laughing happily.
haha...nice..
Only god knows how I really felt when I face this stuffs...
Im crying in the time wondering...WHY..
Why....Why....Why....
Nope Ive done nothing bad lately..But if yes...
At least Ive made the effort to say sry...
But I guess...thats not the end of the story..
At home..Dont even wanna talk abt it..
In sch...nvm lah..
Outside in the world of mine..
erh...one word...UNEXPLAINABLE.
haha...yeah..soso..
Its 12.o5...Still thinking abt everything...
haiss...wow...
My life is full of...full of...
dunno lah..
Its like Im actually wasting my time living.
But when I think twice Im not..and in the same time yes.
Cuz....the reason is...Its ok...You all shud noe..
Nehmind..treat me using your way..
I dont care...haha..
WOW...my first longest post..
and also talk only half on my life...nice..
>.<
' BANG! "oops ssomeone shott herr!" "who's the her?"
"_da_u!"
Fill in the blanks! LOLZ
and kay! F.Y.I!
STOP CALLING ME EMO OR TOMBOY OK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JUST STOP!!!!!!!! CUZ IM NOT ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thank You..
Jon sry that I shouted at u...Didnt meant too..
But pls..Stop calling me any of em...pls..
haishh...Ive got one message for you all reading this..
Who knows me..and a friend of mine..

Sorry If Ive done something bad or anything to you..
Hope you forgive me. And I would like to say...
Just feel free..To injure me if you are not happy with me..
I welcome you..hehehe

finally..felt a little better after writing this out...
haish...I hope there's at least someone,who I can really2
share whats happening to me..and can lend me a listenin ear.
with some good advices...
lolz...wah damn long sia....haha..anyways sry if i talk alot abt me...
I just want to let everything out...
Off...gtg...wanna kill myself for tonight..
wat i mean is i want to sleep kay..
Im not mad...for god sake..
TC evyr1...GOODNIGHT

Off...~[.N.I.]~

- AiSyAh!!BeSTFRiENd4eVer.^^
- Aini.:)
- Afifah.PrIBuDd.:))
- Akmal.BudDy.(:
- Amanda.XcuteMa'am.(:
- AnDi.MyLoVABLEBro(:
- N'Anyssa.ChinGAYBABE(:
- Arwen.MyBEStPaRtNer(BrO).:D
- AtiQAh.ThEChInEsEExPERt.;)
- Amirah:DD.BestBuddy!
- BeA."FlYinGcArPaRk"=)
- Benjamin.MySyiOksiR.=)
- BenSOn.HAHAHA XD
- ChInwee:D
- ChingNa.SiSteRrForEver!!;)
- ChiuPinG.DaROCK1.;D
- Chloe.GodSis.;>
- ClArA!SiSteRForEvER:D
- DiaN.BuDDy!:D
- EbAl!!MyFaVGdBrO&DAnCEOPaL=>
- EvElYn.meSCHmate(:
- FariZaH!XBTYN!(:
- GaWai.SquadMate(:
- GeOkTenG.JuNioR.=X
- HayaTi.BesTfrIend.^^
- HazIq.MeBuDDY4eVer.:D
- HisyaM.GodBro.:D
- IzzuaNd0.NCC(a)SenIor.XD
- Jaime.Senior;))
- JasLyN.The'TrAIn'FingErS=)
- 'JeChiEl!ATCBuDdy=)
- JuAnNe!MyFaVPsL=)
- Ji Siang.NCCSenior.(^,^)
- JiAhUa.MyCRAZYncO:>
- JiAyu.MeJuNIOR.=)
- JoSh.mebuddyFrmDF:P
- Joshua.MyEMOnco>.<
- Kale.Squadmate.x)
- K-Hai-Ri.FtPpSbUd.;)
- NaZ.PrIScHBud=)
- NicolE.PiAnOBudDy=)
- Nevin.GodBro.^.^
- Nicholas.NCCSenior.^-^
- MicKiE.MyBeSTJumPEr. =D
- QiUtIng.OPM XD
- Rena.GodSis.XD
- SeOwLinG.xBaND/teMpTeACheR.x)
- ShAnGmInG.ApPlEgUY:)<
- Sheila.BeStBudIes:)
- SiYi.SquaDmaTE.:)
- TiffaNy.SwiMgfwen><
- VaLerie.FtPpS:)
- VaLerie.1e3.:)
- WeeKeat.President07*.')
- XinHuI.SeNioR'))
- YaOyUaN.MyBroThErFoREVer.=D
- Zane.Senior.')
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