It was Me. With The Rose I Gave You.

Identity Memoirs Exits Letters

ALL I COULD SAY NOW IS...
My Life SUX to CORE. Its A FREAKING PIECE OF SHIT!
My Surrounding sucks! MY Life Sucks. And all I could
do now is to keep my FUCKING MOUTH SHUT. AND NEVER2
gonna TELL ANYONE IF I HAVE PROBLEMS. Well I dont tell any1
before anyway..SOme of you that ever heard abt my so called
"problems" erm yeah..Just wanna let you know that..Thats Not
the real truth..I just tell you all halfway..Cuz I think
dont bother telling you all the REAL truth...of wat im facing..
Its better to keep everything to myself.
Cuz NO ONE! NOT EVEN ONE PERSON! CAN TRULY UNDERSTAND ME.
Can You all just tell me!? WHY!? I WANNA KNOW THE REASON WHY!?
WHY i am here....? ANd WHY...just forget it..
TO make Everything to a short case. MY LIFE SUCKS! ITS FUCKING BULLSHIT!
UNDERSTAND THAT!? DONT ask me WHY! I dont even wanna THINK abt IT
ANYMORE! Im sick of being treated of what i am!? When all ive got to do,
is to keep quiet..even tho it really hurts deep inside..
nvm...im off...

ART HOUSE
Today was great. Haha,went to the Art House.
First was at school,we came so early and yeah ended up,
dancin and playing in the hall like mad cows. lol.
Then Lauren asked me to play Tag. With her. So yeah i did.
until then Afi came down. All of us that were playing at the hall
run like we actually dunno where to run. He was like damn fast larh!
wahlao...We were all then took a short break eating MCDONALDS!!
WoOoOoOoOTs!!! hehes. kks. then we actually took alot of fries.
lolz. haha. then the 4 of us,Idayah,Aini,Sheila and Myself help ourself
with that whole lot of fries. haha it was nice. hehe
The Second thing,when we actually finally reached the art house.
When we reached in the playden at level 2. We started dancin'
then we cheer there and here! ahaha damn nice.....
when we went to the backstage all we do is make-up! haha we make-up
until so emo larhs! hahaha then after that FIRST TIME! SASUKE!
WANTED TO MAKE-UP! UNBELIEVEBLE! haha ok ok.
Thirdly,all of us went for a 2nd run through. Then the ACTUAL!
PERFORMANCE! WOOOO!!! haha dance dance then the JAZZFUNK TEAM turn!
haha dance dance then got technician prob. zzz. nvm!
WE PERFORM ONCE MORE! WEEEE... hahha
kkksss. Then OVER!
WAIT! there's MORE!
haha.We went to the backstage again then we dance and took some photos.
After We plead Mr Yeo for......DISCO SESSION TIME MEN!
haaha he allowed us! We dance like mad! hehe. Was syiok larhs..cuz
i look like Michael Jackson with the hat dancing at the front with
others following haha. lolz.then dance dance. we do handstand all
wah like damn superb larh deh! haha dance like mad alr.
after all the freeze and handstand. and dancin'we were asked to finish
up those luxurious foods and leaved.
haha In the BUS!
haha.. freaking fun..Once we step in alr. We sing and sing and sing.
Like "you are my beautiful girl!" then we all started clapin' and singin'.
then we change song to "we were,we were ROCK YOU!" but some of them say..
Fcuk u. zzz haha. then we Kena Ms Caneda by singing the sch song. And
the national anthem so loudly! then ar,we kena jack back eh!
Ms Caneda said that if Monday we never sing that loud and clear.
We all KENA! THE WHOLE LOT OF US! hahhahaha >.<
ok ok. then finally...
Reach school. haha then I decided to go piano play lah..
Until then when Y3 came down,like panic. Then ask why..
He say.. "eh u scare me ler,thought where you go. wah pls ler.
stay with us dont vanish like that can." OoO ok. i said. haha
then actually that point of time also i scared ar.. cuz Afi said.
What if there's really pontianak at the piano? zzz
I was like damn freaked out lor..haha cuz the piano area there was damn freaking
DARK. zzz.. my mind start to imagine wild things alr..Like
suddenly 'pon' fly behind me or wat. haha i know its ridiculous. zzz
hahah but then i cant take it. lolz.
Ok. then finalllyyyy...
When Home.
HOME SWEET HOME!
THE END
haha.. i just love the overall. ITS THE BEST!!!!
SUPERB FUN! haha.
ok larhs.. I damn tired. cant blog no more..
tata.

today was ok..and tomorrows the day!
ok..all i wanted to is invite..all my loved ones.
Like my sis and her friend,my bestest friend,Aisyah..
and HIM. all of em cant come..they are busy..haishh..was just sad
because of that. Then didnt went to NP. So i missed him and todays drills.
heard that Shone thought us some new stuffs.. yeah..
soso went to the Art House just now..the auditorium is damn "big".
haha...lolz. anyways.. yeah..
thats all for today..i damn tired alr. cant even press the keys on the
keyboard properly. zz.z..soso..
ciaos..oyasumi nasai..

haish...Ive becoming so emo this days..
I love to hear more slow songs...heh..
hmm..mayb my friends who's reading this..
yeah just wana tell u..Sorry if i acted so strangely
in school...Im just sad over some stuffs..so hope
you all understand... heh.. and yeah i got this poem..
I like it so..I post it.. haha...

You don't know
You can't see
What really goes on
Inside of me
My eyes shield
How I feel inside
You don't know
How much I've cried
My mouth restricts
What I'd really say
And make you think
I'm perfectly okay
I know you tried
You mean well
But I have things
I'd never tell
To truly laugh
To really smile
Is something I haven't
Done in a while
You'll never know
How I really feel
I don't know how long
It will take to heal.
Just know that
I still love you
After everything
That I've been through.
You'll never see
Inside my mind
I'm protecting you
From what you'd find.
I protect you because
I love you so.
This is my pain
You'll never know.

haha thats all i wanna share for this evening.
noth much happend today..except that i went to
esplanade play the piano..Then i play secret song there.
hehe..zzzz..but havent complete larhs..
lolz. okay it was nice,but when you play the piano
alone facing a huge glass window,and its raining outside..
when u were actually thinking of someone..and...when u play
the piano..you imagine he was beside you playing it with u...
but then all along it was an illusion... its the saddest
thing you could do. Even if I just sit beside him,doing
absolutely nothing,it means everything to me..
nvm..bye..

Wah today like damn syiok?
Haha. in the morning get up,when to watch Harry Potter movies.
I manage to watch erm...HP1,2,3 and 4. 5 and 6. no time. It was
becase i started watching ard 12am. ended at 8am or something.
Then go watch some movie with my sister. haha,hmm then ard,
12 plus,get changed and went off to Esplanade. My FAVOURITE
hangout. haha,went the library there,to get some books about musicians
and Chopin of cuz. Just wanna know more about them. then eventually,
I met this lady who's a piano teacher of Christofori Music School.
Hmm.How did I know she was a teacher? Haha,she was searching for books
such as,'teaching piano to students' and stuffs like tat. So yeah.
After tat we went talking about pianos for about 15 to 20 mins.
hahaks. yeah then I saw this piano practice room at the back of e
library. It was damn cool. haha. wanted to book it when I realised its alr,
4pm so yeah. nvm. head back home after that. haha.
I still remember yesterday night. My sis told me,she will support me all the
way in arts and dance and my studies of cuz,all the way. men thanx sis!
hehe. well at leasr I know someone supports me haha.
then then. continue watching Harry Potter. haha
>.< ok ok noth much. Just wishing my NCC brudders which is
Nevin and Yao Yuan. Happy Birthday!! in advance men!
Ok ok. gotta head off now. ciaos bye.

HAPPY B'DAE SIS!
today my sis b'dae hehe. ^^
So cheer up men sis!

haishh..I had a bad day..Take it one down..
haishhh...

"Im proudly present that
the highest mark student for Mathematics Paper 1 is...Idayu!"
said Mrs Ang. Then,dramatically I stood up walk to the front and took
my paper with a non-surprise expression.

I FAILED! Knew IT! haha.. no surprise tho.. Everything was set up in my mind
so no use surprising for my results bah.. haha..but was dissapointed cuz..
of my results..haha sci.. yup same. no expression. failed. so ya. waiting for
sec B. Hope my sec Bs pull me up. But its ok I guess..I have my art,history
and the oth subs to help me along my EOY results. I just cant wait to see my
oth results. I dunno why,but this days. I can like just predict the future! GOSH!
Thats So Raven! Is the future I can see!
Thats So Raven. Is the Mysterious me!!
Ok enuff Crap. Lets change to Prawn. hmm...
damn..You see..ar..Another thing thats strange is that.
mayb its coincidence u wouldnt know but the timing is so accurate.
In the morning,i wish to see him,cuz it brightens up my day. And yeah
right the moment i step out from my car. I saw him. haha.
nah its just that i like seeing his face. lolz. dunno why. then
after sch. went home take clothes,come back for training.
then eventually when I walk in front of the gate. I was again expecting to
see him. And yeah. He appeared. haha cool enuff tho.
haishhhh..So calming to see him,but dont like him. The oth one,I miss him,
but too bad next parade cant see him BECOZ! I needa go the Art House darn!
Im afraid is my promo test! And it will be like clashing! HOLY SHIT!
Damn! Wah god pls dont make it clash on the same day!! And its like
if i never go Art house,I will be kick out frm the team and if I
never go for promo test. I guess I will stay in private cuz not sure if theres
another re-test for me. zzz. men..exams are over. tot of releasing all stress!
but then looking at my results and whats happening so far!
Its MORE stress than EXAMS! darn..I think for this moment.
Ill name it my Stress Month! zzzzzzz..why.!? Y?! wy!? wyi!?
haishh..nvm..stop here now. gotta go.
I'm halfway through the door.
I'm leaving.Walking without turnin back. But my fans are calling me!
They are shouting my name!

Just shut up and go Idayu..zzzz fine.
bye. Ciaos. tc everyone! ^^

Haha..Hmm..
Today..Maths Paper 2..
was damn freaking EASY! haha
Predicted I pass this time! hehe so confident lolz. jk
haishhh...Just finish watching Secret By Jay Chou again..
Wow..I wish I had a guy like him..I want! I dont wish..
But too bad..Guys liddat isnt easy to find in this world..
Well and yeah...I wish...I got the him...Its been for months,
before I like MN. I like him first..But was confused halfway thru..
Well..Yeah im still learning to play Secret on piano. Men..
My piano sucks to the core! its an organ! wat could you expect?
I cant even play the full song lor! that organ so short! how to
practise tell me? haha,wanna play in sch..dun wan lah..No syiok..
later everybody tot got Jay Chou's wife in sch bah..So dont wanna
show off ar..haha jk jk. ok ok seriously..If only i had those
of piano at home.. I would probably be playing it in full song and
smoothly alr.. Haishhhhhh.... The Score sheet still working on how to
read it. Like Ive said..Stop asking me whether I can read scoresheet
or not! I cant! ok...I learnt by listening..Thats why im slow!
Not like those ppl who take CLASSES! Men you think I afford to pay
$256.85 SGD just for 12 lessons! You kiddin or wat!?
I can play piano alr just need to learn how to read notes can alr lar.
Wat for pay so expensive...waste money! haha. ok ok. enuff of
complaining..lets get back to work...Erm if any of you out there..
Got piano at home..TELL ME! haha..mayb can go your house and play if can.
hahas..yeah..say..talking about piano...I shall one day..Post my history
of when I started playing piano..drawing well and others..
It started..With an outsider..A guy..
I shall tell u all next post then..Anyways..
Happy Celebrating Finish of Exams,but for Sec 1 and this month only..
hahha..We still have exams next time..
And yeah..Sometimes..I when I felt so violent..
Like killing,slashing,throwing myself down from the building..
The piano saved me from doing that.
haha. yeah.. thats the point...hahaks...but seriously..I will
not say vulgar words no more men..nyways that was not me also.
haha....ok i wanna start playing my ANTIQUE organ..
Ciaos..

*1 more paper!!
Im afraid that I failed my maths. FuCk..
Sorry men..I didnt mean to say those words..but..it was HARD.
Paper 1 didnt complete it..Darn!
I left 3 question out. ~Shiat.
No time bah..So rush off with alot of craps.
Thsi is what I think of my subjects so far.
Eng Paper1&2: Ok larhs.Not Bad.Summary quite easy.
MT Paper1&2 : Hmm..okay lars.Got confident that i pass.
Maths Paper1: A NIGHTMARE! Was tricky. Mrs Ang should have set it a little easy.
Predicted I pass by one mark or so.
Geography: Easy. Map-reading ok lars. Still remember we done it during NPCC.
Science: Section B horrible than Section c. Mr Ganesh! Why you set it so hard!? Haishh..
History: Was SYIOK! DAMN EASY! Thanx Mr YEo! You rock! haha he got the FAITH IN US!
Cool!
Literature: Was easy! haha cool Ms James! Do it for 45 mins. Slept about 1h 15min.
haha lolz.
Coming up paper...
MATHS PAPER 2!~ So called 'My Second NIGHTMARE!
Sheesh! I must chiong on maths alr.
Haus..today was nice. train my basketball skills.
I earn another few 3-pointer shoots with one arm! Steady men..
haha..Must Improve!!
ok thats where I stop my story for today.
So take care everyone and off..