Identity Memoirs Exits Letters

Swallow me and spit me out
for hating you I'l shout out loud
seeing you it kills me now
no I don't cry on the outside somehow

Cold Starry night.


Yep. Thats me.
Hello. My name is Nur Idayu Bte Abdul Rahman. 14 goin' 15.
30th DEC 1994
Capricorn
Singapore
quake4_cloud@hotmail.com(MSN&FRIENDSTER). Music and Art is her life.
A Rapper,Dancer,B-Girl,Composer,Lyricist,Pianist.Guitarist.
A Little bit of tomboy but still have my girl me. Dont really give a damn about haters,backstabbers and etc(s).
Don't mess with my loved ones or you'll be messin' with me.
Sounds like im tryin' to be a big shot but NO.
Those who are close with me..Knows me very well in terms of fighting..
Loves :
Family = Mama,Daddy,Sister,Brother,Myself,Kor. Bestfriend = Aisyah. Him&Him = ED. Myself. =P
EDWARD CULLEN IS MINE. HEHE XD


I love goth & emo too. Dont ask me why.. Its my Vampire Bloodline. heh. ;D

men... Today was v unlucky ahhaha.
lol. Right in the morning kena thrash by Elton Koh and Ho Jia Hua
for Basketball....RIGHT....
ZzZz. Men. How i wish i play BETTER than them. hahaha. ya lar.
I NOOB WHAT. haha. skidding.
Ok fine. But there's one weird thing. Why when I playing with them
I cant score one goal properly but when alone. I score 3 pointer alot.
hmmm...dunno why. haha. hmm... lemme see. nvm..
haha. afternoon crap with Aini and Afi. haha.
But well. Today overall was great. ^^
My MoOoD swings to the bright side. I dunno why.
LOL. ok ok. fine. i need to help my mommy now.
Weee~ tatas!


ok..fine. Today is ok.
A ok day. For making me sway. haha.
hmm. well in the morning we got np. Np was great.
we made our pre-camp flag and my group pic was
emo. haha. haha. vry emo. an angel with BLACK eyes!
WoOoOoOtS!. ~clumsy cuz Im falling in love..
~
haha Clumsy song by fergie. ahha LOL. ok. But
~Its too late too apologise..YEAH!!yeah yeah.~
ok ok wait. then afternoon. went to Aisyah's house.
Chit chat craps. yeah...soso. lol. after everything...
Went back home to emo. My house there got a nice view of sunset.
So decided to go there and chill. haish..After all..
Thats what I like to do. CHILL.. haha...
Haiya...Im not so the chaotic lah now..Must relax a little. haha. >.<
kks. I guess thats for today... Well..
Gtg and Off.....


haish.. Yeah.. Recently.
Ive been remembering all those happy memories back then.
But then Its just making me sad. I feel..as if,invisible
in front of him. When will he ever notice me?
Its OK tho. Well the past isn't just the past. It KILLS.
It murder one bit by bit of what you are doing in future,
cuz the moment you wanna do something. You remember the past,
and that actually cause u to either stop your work,or daydream?!
I wanna try to go on with normal life. Just a normal average person.
With no more sorrow and stuffs that's wondering in me.
Have you ever had that feeling of another person in you trying to find
a way out? A feeling of trying something new. Something that you cant
always get everyday,a thing that only happen... once in a lifetime..
Well yeah.. I have that feeling.. too.
And yeah.. some of you who's reading this. might find it one sort of CRAP.
But no. For me it isn't. OK. LISTEN UP.
I hate to repeat things..Whats in the past. Its finish OK. Its...What
I would like to say. DONE. No more rewinding it.
OK. Ill get straight to the point.. I wanna go on!
I don't wanna stay at a particular place. Where you were being tortured
by your own memories. Make it simple. Like some sort of DYING.
Well...yeah i know I've never sound so EMO like this. But never mind.
Ok. I don't know why,but I had nt had a chance to be what Im really am.
And what ive been wanting. is what other ppl gets. but not me.
GET IT?!? ok fine.. enuff..
I hate it..not it. but myself. But making an effort in your life,
is the best thing you can do.. You'll never know. You'll be a better
person...

........one fine day........


OK! Everyone! Im finally back here with my blog!
Its been a long time since I last post an entry! hahs.
kks. Hmm..Lemme see..Alot of stuffs had been happening recently.
Nothing special tho. But Im so disappointed that actually..ACTUALLY..
JAY CHOU TICKETS ARE SOLD OUT! FISH~~ -_- i wanna go!~ ARR!
Men! I wanna go I wanna go I wanna go!!!!! haishh...Guess have to wait
for another 2 or 3 years for his next world tour again. HAISH...
HAISH...... WAT THE HELL! hahaha.. kks. nevermind! The next time round!
I will be the first one to queue for the ticket MUAHAHHAHA!
k. Enuff crapping.

~Omg! Its Jay Chou! He's singing!
Wow! he's voice is magnificent! Oh no! He's coming my way! What Should I
do?! Should I kiss,hug,shake hands,take photo,get his autograph,get his number,
his email? or should I propose to him!? OMG! IM MELTING!~

OK OK! ENOUGH OF MY CRAP! Thats so over. haha >.< but men...
Im his No.1 fan! weee~

aha! No.1 Im No.1!
(whistle sounds)* yeah!

haha kks. hmm i shall blog more next time! I wanna play now!
hahha kks. TATA!
Good Night Everyone! :D

- AiSyAh!!BeSTFRiENd4eVer.^^
- Aini.:)
- Afifah.PrIBuDd.:))
- Akmal.BudDy.(:
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- Arwen.MyBEStPaRtNer(BrO).:D
- AtiQAh.ThEChInEsEExPERt.;)
- Amirah:DD.BestBuddy!
- BeA."FlYinGcArPaRk"=)
- Benjamin.MySyiOksiR.=)
- BenSOn.HAHAHA XD
- ChInwee:D
- ChingNa.SiSteRrForEver!!;)
- ChiuPinG.DaROCK1.;D
- Chloe.GodSis.;>
- ClArA!SiSteRForEvER:D
- DiaN.BuDDy!:D
- EbAl!!MyFaVGdBrO&DAnCEOPaL=>
- EvElYn.meSCHmate(:
- FariZaH!XBTYN!(:
- GaWai.SquadMate(:
- GeOkTenG.JuNioR.=X
- HayaTi.BesTfrIend.^^
- HazIq.MeBuDDY4eVer.:D
- HisyaM.GodBro.:D
- IzzuaNd0.NCC(a)SenIor.XD
- Jaime.Senior;))
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- 'JeChiEl!ATCBuDdy=)
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