Identity Memoirs Exits Letters

Swallow me and spit me out
for hating you I'l shout out loud
seeing you it kills me now
no I don't cry on the outside somehow

Cold Starry night.


Yep. Thats me.
Hello. My name is Nur Idayu Bte Abdul Rahman. 14 goin' 15.
30th DEC 1994
Capricorn
Singapore
quake4_cloud@hotmail.com(MSN&FRIENDSTER). Music and Art is her life.
A Rapper,Dancer,B-Girl,Composer,Lyricist,Pianist.Guitarist.
A Little bit of tomboy but still have my girl me. Dont really give a damn about haters,backstabbers and etc(s).
Don't mess with my loved ones or you'll be messin' with me.
Sounds like im tryin' to be a big shot but NO.
Those who are close with me..Knows me very well in terms of fighting..
Loves :
Family = Mama,Daddy,Sister,Brother,Myself,Kor. Bestfriend = Aisyah. Him&Him = ED. Myself. =P
EDWARD CULLEN IS MINE. HEHE XD


I love goth & emo too. Dont ask me why.. Its my Vampire Bloodline. heh. ;D

OK!
first of all........
HAPPY BDAE DAD!

hehes! Hope You are cheerful today at work!!
hehes! kks. ^^ Im sry but i donno what to get for your bdae,dad.
but then ill do what you what me to be aite! PROMISE!
Seriously. I think its better for us to go with the flow.
You see you guys still know that I still like 'him'.
but then whatever i do. ill concentrate on my studies and fulfill
my mothers expectations on me. ^^ hehes.
yep2. okok. In sch..hmm lemme see..what happened ar?
hmmmmmmm.... yeah..ok. in the morning,PE time. Wah!
I run the whole sch duno why this time not bad. i dont feel that tired.
BUT i sweat like HELL. MUAHHA. ahaha yeah lol. but yeah we did take
out heaight and weight as usal and yadayadayada. BUT!
again! I GREW TALLER BY 2 CM! isnt that magnifico!! haha Im 153 now!
ok. lame. only 153 and 2 cm taller oso wanna be happy like hell.
hahahas. no lahs at least I grow taller U KNOW.. lol.
yeah ok. play piano after runrunrun. soso. lol. ima piano addicter.
zzz wtfff?? i dunno what im crapping now. yeah haha.
ehs. i dunno lahs. then me with that girl okay alr,yeah trying to forget
whats at the past. like what shang ming told me. lol. kks. then
aiya.. nvm lahs..why yuhui always run away when she saw me? she either
hide her face or like turn her back towards me? zzz whatup with that?
lol. im not like angry with her or a kind of monster who dun like girls
like her and probably kill her rite? lol. cap. hehaha. zzz. well yeah.
ok fine.. then actually rite in the morning got 2 probs.
one outside sch and the oth between my friends. but the between my frens tat
one i get to handle myself in the situation to make it better. so yeah
prob one case over! Prob 2. yeah. abt someone. waiting for him to be okay.
zzz. must do something that can make him happy?! erm..thinkthinkthink..
ok fine. erm. mayb now rite. i try to settle stuff myself but im sure for
my age now i still need some advices lol. but ill try myself to do the best!
For My friends,My family,My teachers,and Myself! hahaha. ^^
kks. now now...studies. hmm off the hook and yeah. trying my best for the best.
love life? put aside,concentrate studies then if free time, then wanna
think abt love can go think until crazy.
entertainment. AFTER STUDY!! WOoOoOOoOooOoOoOo!
Its PARTY TIME! haha jk jk nia. kks. lol. hmm.. eyah.. in the afternoon.
haha went to sch library watch spiderman 3 with,aini,sheila,hayati,ruthra and
nurul (afi's younger sister) haha yeah. we crap there until e librarian
had to say..
"EH U ALL WATCHING OR TALKING AR?" and I had to ans...
"haha watching ar! the story very syiok ar yeah syiok. lol"
yeah haha. weeee~~~ then yeah recently afi and yao yuan came down my place.
We played XBOX and PS2. Yao Yuan seriously dunno what he was playing.
first he touched my PS2 then suddenly ask for my PSP then after that
when Afi was playing XBOX he ask afi to lent him the controller he want to play.
zzz hahas. oks lah. they very funny sia..I still remember ycube asked me.
eh Idayu "u friday oso go prayer?" then I blank. ahah "for guys only lah de."
hahhaa >.< he was so paiseh that time.. hahas. zzz afi just cant stop disturbing
him. lol.
lols. yeah then recently oso. been chatting with shang ming on the phone.
haha he told me something soso. thanx ar. ill try my best so.
haha yeah. soso. actually rite.. even the most meanest person in the world
can be very nice. haha. yeah have to thank jia hua for wat he smsed me recently.
lol. didnt expect him to reply liddat but. yeah...except one thing...
WHEN DID I CUT MY WRIST THE WHOLE DAY IN SCH AND EMO AGAIN!?
WHEN!? TELL ME WHEN!??!?!?!?!?!!? What!? U got spycam in my bag ar?!
wt!? hahaha seriously lah..ive quit doing those stuff long time ago alr..
lol. no more emo no more cut-O. hahaha ^^
yeah kks. NOW. hmm............. hearing to MY CHIPMUNKS singing. haha
i got three hamsters taht look like this three chipmunks exactly the same.
seriously their behaviours ar.. wah.. the same lahs! haha
^^ kks. lah i think to long alr de lahs... lol. and yeah...
this is for my friends.
EH YOU GUYS AR! I tell u! Dont think when i ask question like
"do you all really like me as a friend?" you all start saying whats wrong with me
lah say that i emo lahs. think too much lahs. i just ask..cuz mayb
i could change to the better! haha. =) yep2.
soso lahs. i stop here now. I think to much for blogging! LOL.
kks. Take Care Everyone!!
~~ GOOD NIGhT N OFF! ~~

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