Identity Memoirs Exits Letters

Swallow me and spit me out
for hating you I'l shout out loud
seeing you it kills me now
no I don't cry on the outside somehow

Cold Starry night.


Yep. Thats me.
Hello. My name is Nur Idayu Bte Abdul Rahman. 14 goin' 15.
30th DEC 1994
Capricorn
Singapore
quake4_cloud@hotmail.com(MSN&FRIENDSTER). Music and Art is her life.
A Rapper,Dancer,B-Girl,Composer,Lyricist,Pianist.Guitarist.
A Little bit of tomboy but still have my girl me. Dont really give a damn about haters,backstabbers and etc(s).
Don't mess with my loved ones or you'll be messin' with me.
Sounds like im tryin' to be a big shot but NO.
Those who are close with me..Knows me very well in terms of fighting..
Loves :
Family = Mama,Daddy,Sister,Brother,Myself,Kor. Bestfriend = Aisyah. Him&Him = ED. Myself. =P
EDWARD CULLEN IS MINE. HEHE XD


I love goth & emo too. Dont ask me why.. Its my Vampire Bloodline. heh. ;D

FUCK.
NO ONE WAS THERE when I NEED HELP.
and WHEN THEY NEED HELP they EXPECT ME TO BE THERE.
Im not referring to My bestfriend. Thats for sure.
Im not referring to my Best buddies.. THATS FOR SURE.
IM REFERRING TO SOME PEOPLE OUT THERE. WHO DOESNT EVEN CARE
WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENIN TO THE WORLD. yes..
that kind of people.. well..
its really really stressing me out..
GOD HELP ME OUT!
FINE! SEE.
My throat is killing me..
Im so stressed out that nearly everyday IM CRYING!
WTH!? I just dunno what to do!!!!!!
DUN ASK ME WHAT THE HLL IM THINKING...
DUN EVEN ASK WHY AM I BEING THIS WAY..
Im just sick of whats happenin...
Fine.. lets forget abt this..



As time goes by..
NDP is coming..
For me.. Its not the beginning..
Its an Ending..
To all the fun and all the happenings...
And when I passes by the flats,houses,shops and the streets..
And I saw the Singapore Flag..
The more and more i saw em..
the more sad I became..
Why does it have to end so soon...
Why must it be this way..
Why must it be 9 of August...
When we have to end our fun days..

I felt so emo when I heard 9 of August is going to be a FUN day for us.
Yes. Yep. Its true.. But came to think it..
The fun that we had,is going to end..
When I went to this NDP trainings..
The CR 1 and CR 2.
NE 1 and NE 2.
And all the previous trainings we had..
I dunno what to say or how to describe..
But they are the GREATEST FRIENDS I EVER HAVE IN MY LIFE!
Gotta be honest..

yeah.. That is where I found my GREAT FRIENDS. haha. Yep. Myb Lev.
Myb, alot more. hahaha. yeah.. Im so emo.. now.. cant blog alr.
Im gonna miss all of em..


OFFF

- AiSyAh!!BeSTFRiENd4eVer.^^
- Aini.:)
- Afifah.PrIBuDd.:))
- Akmal.BudDy.(:
- Amanda.XcuteMa'am.(:
- AnDi.MyLoVABLEBro(:
- N'Anyssa.ChinGAYBABE(:
- Arwen.MyBEStPaRtNer(BrO).:D
- AtiQAh.ThEChInEsEExPERt.;)
- Amirah:DD.BestBuddy!
- BeA."FlYinGcArPaRk"=)
- Benjamin.MySyiOksiR.=)
- BenSOn.HAHAHA XD
- ChInwee:D
- ChingNa.SiSteRrForEver!!;)
- ChiuPinG.DaROCK1.;D
- Chloe.GodSis.;>
- ClArA!SiSteRForEvER:D
- DiaN.BuDDy!:D
- EbAl!!MyFaVGdBrO&DAnCEOPaL=>
- EvElYn.meSCHmate(:
- FariZaH!XBTYN!(:
- GaWai.SquadMate(:
- GeOkTenG.JuNioR.=X
- HayaTi.BesTfrIend.^^
- HazIq.MeBuDDY4eVer.:D
- HisyaM.GodBro.:D
- IzzuaNd0.NCC(a)SenIor.XD
- Jaime.Senior;))
- JasLyN.The'TrAIn'FingErS=)
- 'JeChiEl!ATCBuDdy=)
- JuAnNe!MyFaVPsL=)
- Ji Siang.NCCSenior.(^,^)
- JiAhUa.MyCRAZYncO:>
- JiAyu.MeJuNIOR.=)
- JoSh.mebuddyFrmDF:P
- Joshua.MyEMOnco>.<
- Kale.Squadmate.x)
- K-Hai-Ri.FtPpSbUd.;)
- NaZ.PrIScHBud=)
- NicolE.PiAnOBudDy=)
- Nevin.GodBro.^.^
- Nicholas.NCCSenior.^-^
- MicKiE.MyBeSTJumPEr. =D
- QiUtIng.OPM XD
- Rena.GodSis.XD
- SeOwLinG.xBaND/teMpTeACheR.x)
- ShAnGmInG.ApPlEgUY:)<
- Sheila.BeStBudIes:)
- SiYi.SquaDmaTE.:)
- TiffaNy.SwiMgfwen><
- VaLerie.FtPpS:)
- VaLerie.1e3.:)
- WeeKeat.President07*.')
- XinHuI.SeNioR'))
- YaOyUaN.MyBroThErFoREVer.=D
- Zane.Senior.')
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