Identity Memoirs Exits Letters

Swallow me and spit me out
for hating you I'l shout out loud
seeing you it kills me now
no I don't cry on the outside somehow

Cold Starry night.


Yep. Thats me.
Hello. My name is Nur Idayu Bte Abdul Rahman. 14 goin' 15.
30th DEC 1994
Capricorn
Singapore
quake4_cloud@hotmail.com(MSN&FRIENDSTER). Music and Art is her life.
A Rapper,Dancer,B-Girl,Composer,Lyricist,Pianist.Guitarist.
A Little bit of tomboy but still have my girl me. Dont really give a damn about haters,backstabbers and etc(s).
Don't mess with my loved ones or you'll be messin' with me.
Sounds like im tryin' to be a big shot but NO.
Those who are close with me..Knows me very well in terms of fighting..
Loves :
Family = Mama,Daddy,Sister,Brother,Myself,Kor. Bestfriend = Aisyah. Him&Him = ED. Myself. =P
EDWARD CULLEN IS MINE. HEHE XD


I love goth & emo too. Dont ask me why.. Its my Vampire Bloodline. heh. ;D

What goes around come back around...
I thought I told ya.. yeah...



Let me spill another vulgar recitation..
Sometimes I tend to say.. Somethings are just like a prohibition..
Speaking out the truth and telling out all my confession..
Men.. ay yo.. that isn't a passion..nor a sensation..
Fuck all those.. Idiotic fools out there...
those who was trying to make others life crazay..
"Last Night.. tried callin'.. All I get was a busy tone..
C'mon spit it out.. haha don't tell me you didn't hear your phone?!"
Fuckers and Bitches who thinks life and your love ones are likes Sex Pistol!
Listen up and pay attention! Before you got aids or even a simple cold.
Think twice.
I would advice.
Look! If you think playin' and actin' around your love ones and in life is cool?
heh.. More like you people doesn't know the real meaning of a fool!
Want some definition!?
oops. Lemme bring up this sensation.
Yeah... Okay.. Here I go again.. It sounds im like over reactin'..
But after everythin'..
Just keep on readin'..
ill say out this...

"You spent your nights alone and she never comes home..
And every time you call her all you get is a busy tone..
I heard you found what she's doin' to you.. What you did to me..
And thats the way it goes.. You cheated bastard..my heart is all bleedin'..
So keep goin' and i'll be sayin' you'll be feelin' hurt..
This is a classic game.. A scenario.. Hey boy im tellin' ya..
You got what you deserved and you now want somebody..
To cure your lonely nights...To have somebody to make you just feel right..
Boy ain't somebody.. Its like a circus thing..
So what goes around come back around..
I thought I told ya.. yeah...:

It was song..
Yeah to me it doesn't sound wrong..
Think about it twice.
This is what you call some of the guys..
I didn't say all of em'.. Some is still nice..
This is an example of what you call they think their love ones are Sex Pistol.
Fuck men! Didn't you guys ever think what would they feel?
C'mon guys.. Im trying make it right.. make you feel that is real..
Its reality.. They're still human beings fucker!
We got feelings?! Am I Right!?
We sometimes also do need to peel off the paint off from the high ceiling?!
Am I right?
We do have problems that we need to face..
In order to perfect ourself in this life.. Which looks like an Amazing race!
sit and think about it again..
If you were to hurt them.. What do you gain..?
They gain pain.. Some of em' even do crazy stuff.. Men are you insane?!
You make em' feel that way.. You'll eventually realised that.. "men.. I've should make their days."
But am I too late?
too late to change? too late to turn a new life..?
men.. nah fuckers... im not nagging..
Im just saying..
cuz lemme tell ya something..
this is what thats i've been observing..
Its now all happenin'..
to our surroundin's..
And if you were to be one of da victims..
It wouldn't do great to you livin'..
It'll keep you stressin'..
Now look.. You might think that I'm crappin'..
but seriously.. Think.. Your loved ones.. really sacrifice alot for ya..
But what do ya return to da kindness? A fool who is laughing at their tears and
say " haha. what a losA!"
FUCK MEN! FUCK SHIT! FUCK YOU!
FUCK IT MEN!
THINK! FEEL! REALISE! ITS REALLY ISN'T NICE!
men.. damn it men..
I didn't meant to spill vulgar no more..



But please.. All i want is to see.. What makes my loved ones happy..
Would you guys really want to see someone who you dearly love
cry and cry.. And I'm not trying to talk bullshit..
After they cry.. What if its too late and they leave us?
You know DIE?
Men.. just please guys.. really I'm begging you..
I had enough of seeing that..

this is just expressed out with my words..
But seriously if i happened to see that happenin' to my loved ones..
MEN.. THOSE PEOPLE ARE SERIOUSLY FUCKING DEAD SHIT!
You MESS WITH EM' YOU'RE MESSIN' WITH ME..
If that person happened to read my blog..
Remember what happened to my dearly aunt who loves me so much..and not here no more?!
REMEMBER WHAT YOU DID TO HER!
AND WHAT I DID TO YOU!?
YEAH YOU WANT ANOTHER VISIT AT THE ALEXENDRA HOSPITAL!?
YOU WANT MOTHERFUCKER?!
FUCKER SIA!
SERIOUSLY!
YOU FUCKING MADE HER LEAVE ME! YOU FUCKING MADE GOD TAKE HER BACK!
YOU'RE FUCKING DEAD!


I don't know what the hell is wrong with me tonight.. I feel so..
Fuck.. So vulgar..
Im sorry men.. I'll apologies for that...
I'm just so sad when I think about some stuff....

But yes.. I'm not trying to be arrogant,gangster like,haolian or stuff like that..
I'm not that type of person..
I'm just serious about this situation..
Cuz a friend of mine had experienced it and I was there for her and him
all along.. I was there to witnessed...
And I guess thats what make me more serious person now..


Just ... Sorry guys.. alright..


offf.....

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