It was Me. With The Rose I Gave You.

Identity Memoirs Exits Letters

DANCE,Dance,dance... =P I'm Lovin' It.

Yeah.
Ok peeps. There's a Jazzfunk performance at Far East Plaza!
On 5 Dec!
~ MUST COME! =)

Yeps. Lol. At least this second performance gonna be better than
the first. Urgh. The First was a disaster!
Yeah. Oh uh huh.
I'm waiting for the Perth group to come down my place as we need
to finish the whole presentation up.
Seriously. WHY,WHY!? Must I have to work with SOMEONE.
And be the 2nd in charge.. nice... zzz =.=

Ok ok. fine.. Im bloody bored.
Again. I didnt sleep ytd nite. hahahahaha...
Some people know why..
Damn..My right palm got one blue black sia..
Somemore its right in the middle of it. And it looks like the yin and yang?
Whatever it spells like. yeah. Its bloody cool yet painful. But I dont
know why I aint feeling the pain unless I fist it. LOL.

Oh yeah. hmmm..
Todays planning.
After 4. They ciaos home.
I'll just go around and destroy things around the neighborhood.
lol. Then do more graffiti along the walls of Jericho. hahaha.
then go and burn humans houses. hahaha.
SKIDDDIIINNNNN!

Ya think Ima do that shit?
Thats just crazy! hahaha. oh well.
I'm just bored. AERGH!

Oh well.

PEOPLE. I'll link ya all a.s.a.p. hahaha. =) ok ok. GTG. tatata!

What type of Vampire am I? ;D

Is it Love or Addiction?

Yeah. I wanna talk about this..
Lol. I've been wondering..
If certain things happened.. Isit Love? Or its just Addiction?
The issue of determining if you are in love or intensely addicted to another is an issue that crosses all ethnic, racial, class and age lines. How is love experienced in a modern world that values materialism more than anything else? It is challenging to define love today. I believe love is mutual self-less giving that is based on a deep trust. The characteristics of addiction are craving of a person, severe mood swings if unable to feel secure in the relationship, inability to function normally, obsession of your partner and severe withdrawal symptoms if your lover leaves you.

haha.. hmmm... So, what is the difference between being in love from being addicted?

The characteristics of being addicted to someone else are:

1. There is full time drama in your life which causes chaos and confusion. Other friends and family members are dragged into you emotional upheaval.
2. You are always trying to please your partner by giving more of yourself than you should-until you reach the point where you have no self at all.
3. After intense fighting, you are willing to take your partner back no matter how much he hurt you. The fight usually involves infidelity, lying, and other forms of cheating, but you take him back no matter how many times he commits these offenses.
4. You are afraid to exist without him even though you have been very much alone during your time with him. You don’t recognize that he is bringing you down.
5. Your partner crosses a boundary that should never be allowed. He physically assaults you, threatens your life and calls you stupid, the c word and the b word.

The characteristics of being in love with someone are:

1. There is no fear of bodily harm, emotional abuse or other boundary violations.
2. You know you can trust him to do the right thing.
3. There is a distinct absence of drama and chaos.
4. When you have an argument, there is a respectful sharing of feelings.
5. You forgive him because you want to, not because you have to.
6. He supports your need to be a strong, independent woman and you support his need to be a strong, independent man.

You finally now have the opportunity to choose between being driven by addiction or love in your relationships. For those of you who have been relating to others in an addictive manner, it will take lots of work and full time awareness to alter this course. However, it is possible to change and this will greatly improve the quality of your life..

i sound.. soooo.. WUW. haha.

Ok Ok. lol. im just bored. And the topic came up in my mind.
lol. greattt....
Tomorrow I'll post abt soemthing. haha..
More to ... Something else..
Just see.. LOL.

tata. XD

This is for my beloved bestfriend.. Aisyah..

This is the whole thingy I wanna say to you..
Recap from your tagboard.. I don wanna flood it.. sry..lol..
Yeah.. here it goes again..

Hey...
Its ok if you cant tell... never run.. no matter how hard you fall flat on your face and you just wanna give up. I believe every humans do have a second chance. even if its used up...I still believe theres this small portion in our hearts that we could still strive for the better. seriously.. remember wat ive said b4? what you believe is what you'll become... and..What you'll become will come set you your destiny.. We dont wanna end up rotting,feeling remorse over it.. even the scar is painful,think rationally,what could solve it.. but if you want to know..
Is not who or what or anything that can solve it.. Its you,who can solve it.. Feel good and love yourself everyday. Think for the better and put in few efforts 4 it,like ive said..Its not the heart thats killing you,is the mind..
Dont feel upset.. Be strong syah..Seriously.. No matter what.
Stand up tall. No one has the right to bring you down! NO ONE! You are strong.
I believe that! Its not time to give up! Remember..
Dont tell me theres no human being that never ever did a single SIN before..
Thats just bullshit.. We did. Even I did. Even if its not the biggest or the worst,
you learned from it right? For the better of cuz. Dont ever fall then stand up and run. When you fall. Carry yourself up and remember how you slip. And never
let that happened again. Im really no good at advicing but I'm trying my best
doing everything thats best for you. Im no lesbian. But I love ya sis, i dont
want any single FUCKING thing to happened to you. And pls...
If anyone ever dare to touch you. They're really messing with my ass man.
I hate this part right here. Yes.
Dont feel weak. Pls.
Dont say yourself a monster.
Dont say your heart is sour.

Dont ever say stuffs like that to make yourself feel better.

Yep. Your last love. Is to God. Thats what i do.
Allah is the most closest to you. Not me. Nor you.
But I'm still there for you when you need me..
DO NOT EVER COMPARE YOURSELF TO ANYONE ELSE.
DO NOT LET ANYONE COMPARE YOU WITH ANYONE. unless its something better.
BUT. You are what you are. They dont like it. They lost a good friend.
They like it. They gain it. You gotta search that inner strength within you.
Listen to what Eminem had said in his songs.
1#
This is what he've said.
Sometimes you feel tired,
feel weak and, when you feel, you feel like you wanna just give up.
But you gotta search within you, you gotta find that inner strength
and just pull that shit out of you and get that motivation to not give up
and not be a quitter, no matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face and collapse.

See what I mean. I wont encourage you by saying its ok to do something really
bad. But you know the consequences right..? im not saying that you've done
something bad either.. But going fast wont do good either.
Go reallllllyyyy slow... Think... Really feel..
Forget about the past. They're just past thats holding you back.
It aint do good thinking abt em'. Pls.. Im begging you.. Just
dont do anything stupid..
I know you want your dad back badly.. I know how much you love him..
I saw how you go through the times when you were with your dad..And when
you were with your mum.. I know how it feels.. & I want you know..
what I believe about your dad.. That he still loves you..
Dont worry.. He'll find you and you'll find him..
All you need is.. love.
Yeah.. Some people might be saying this.. haha.. macam faham ar idayu...
translation.. like you understand the whole situation like that..
But Ive got to tell you guys out there too..
being someone different is also hardship... But I guess a few knows about me..
Not all.. Well.. Aisyah.. There's one more thing..Da last thing
I wanna say....

God knows the best.. And there's reasons why you've put through this hard life
situation.. He wants you to learn something.. Its a challenge.
remember.. every time this kind of things happened.. treat it as a test from God.
You pass it at the end.. You fail it.. Its all your to decide.
Do the best.. aite.
Sorry if i get out of topic. But this is what I've learned during those moments
when I needed space. Its what Ive experience and put it into habit..

And yeah.. This is what Ive learned..And I want you to know about it too..
You see...
1. You put your experience into words.
2. Your words become thoughts.
3. Your thoughts become ideas.
4. Your ideas become actions.
5. Your actions become habits.
6. Your habits become personality.
7. Your personality. Becomes your destiny.

aite..

Ive got to go now.. and.. yeah... seriously..
Friday I hope you're free and if you are try get $10.
Ask me personally why.. =)

Bye...Love ya sis.. Sry Im not that good at advicing.. seriously.. haha...

Sorry.. take care aite..

Silence Overtook Me...

Some part are for everyone thats known me more than 2 years.
Upset over some stuffs.
Seriously.. really upset...
Didnt expect.. But it did happened
somehow I predicted it would, before this.
In the morning. yeah.
Guess I'm no more important to some people.
Yeah. this is what you get when you've been trying
your very best to keep peoples feelings in place.

This is for her.
Nevermind. I understand her situation.
Let it be. If you need me. Im just a call away.
If not other than that. I wont control your life.
Its your life. I've no rights to control or decide
what you should do.. But I hope you'll always
remember to go for the rights. Even problems
might come through and out, you gotta believe that
you can solve it smoothly with a solution.
Just dont go do anything stupid. I dont like it.
I've stop mine. Lol. I cant be hurt also. =_=
But at least there's small amt. One tiny dot. zz.
Well. I understand that certain problems and circumstances
we cant share. No worries. I know. You needed the space.
Yes. I believe that. I needed too. At times for sure.
So yeah. Dont worry about making me stop my plannings
if im having any. A bfriend will still be a bfriend.
No matter what. =) So I hope you'll understand this.
Just remember what I've sms you last time. That long lecture
I gave ya. Think abt what ive said. Isit worth while..?
When there's alot people around you that you can share it with to.
So,spill it out partna. It aint gonna do good, if its trap.
You'll keep havin' headaches. So cheer up. I still got your back.
No matter if there's someone more better than me out there..
Love ya sis...

OH YA. I've got mood to blog. But not sms or talk yes.
So anything TAG. And I'll try replying you guys back before
Dooms Day. yeah.ohoh. && yep. If you guys ever see me outside
alone. bloodshot red eyes. dont say anything or hi.

~Im just sleepy and moody.~

err yeah.. I dunno why..

My mood swing for today is like the worse among all mood swings I had b4.
The most scariest mood swing ever.
ARGH! I NO MOOD ALREADY. 4get it!!!!!!!!!

WTH! sorry guys. This is my first VULGAR post for the month.
Men. Ive stop saying vulgar already but things are just making
me saying it again.. God forgive me..
but men...

FUCK IT!!
ISHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Nvm. Im good. Chill as the real me. heh...
Next year ar.. I think you all wont recognize me already..
I dont think I wanna be hyper like last time..
but still I'll still have my happy side lah..
I wont be THAT serious... Unless ppl are asking 4 it.
Since MY NEW classmates are some ppl which is.
Yeha. and. yep. ooohh.. soo. yea.
I just. what. oh yep. okay.

Yeah. thats how the story goes.
ok.
FINE. I wanna chill now.

CIaOs!

Yo PEOPLE!

Ok.
PEOPLE. LISTEN UP.

I've got nothing to say. BUT

I'm finishing my 5th song soon!
WOooOOOooTS!

Ok ok. Title : Pin It Up!
By : Me of course. haha. =P a.k.a N-Se7eN.

Yeap. I think thats all for today. Cause I'm feeling lazy to blog. lol.
OooOOooOKAy!

P.S : I miss NDP 2008 Moments...
P.S.S: I MISS PERTH AND THE TRIP AND THE PEOPLE. SPECIALLY AL******!

haha.

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

I'm stuck in Heart Station for the first time...

Ok people You wanna read about Perth Entry. Which Is MINE~
Go here.

www.myhappinesslullaby.blogspot.com

Thank you! pls visit and tag!

Ok ok.

got to tell ya guys...
again.
I think I'm sticking to my real me behaviour.
I wish you guys would understand.
Would give me a hand.
But this stuffs? huh? haha.. it has to depend.
The future.
My behaviour.
If someone could understand the bitter..ness..
Of being ignore-polluted by the surroundings.
I know you guys wont understand this things.
the words im saying.
No. Not because i rapping.
Its because you guys think its irrtating.
when Im starting it again.
But all this while. Who's facing the pain?
Yes. I wanna say this.
The Truth is The Pain,
You dont face it? Then there's No Gain!
You wanna be better in life. Not worst.
You wanna get successful in life. Not broke.
You want people to love you. Not hate.
You better get moving a little. Get my debate?
Sometimes people say Im-No-Making-Sense.
Sometimes people say iM-jusT-toO-tensE.
But yet still.
Who's going through it?
And yet still.
Who's paying the wounds-bill?
yes. ME. I'm paying on my own for my own.
I dont retrace my wrong footsteps to take to the right better path.
I learned from it and make sure I make things right at the end of it.
Being right all the time wont gain anything buddy.
Being wrong all the time wont gain you any improvement homie.
So what I'm trying to say.
We have our rights.
We have our wrongs.
But we've gotta learned to handle it correctly,
or we'll have to go ding-dong.
Oh yeah. Its like I'm making a song.
i'm still me no matter what.
hate me. your choice.
love me. its still your choice.
I've got to agree to what Assahktian gotta say in his blog.
What is this all bout. Specificly, Love.
Its like the worst maniac FOUR LETTERS SITUATION.
Which can drive you crazy.
Insane.
Happy.
In pain.
But at most leave you blind through you life.
Once you're blind.
You're leaving the facts behind.
hah! Get it?
Oh. Still dont.
Check it!
Dont tell me you wont.
haha. Even those out there the mature ones.
Will sometimes agree to this.
Yes SOMETIMES. But men. This is life. Its like twist!
So get yourself at the hang of it.
Try to understand,
why I'm always puttin out a rap like this.
Its because I'm still wondering....

Who can really understand what I'm feeling right now..
Somehow..
Well. This is life right?
Well I think it will end someday.
I think it wouldnt I would say.
But oh well. again.
the Pain is still here with me.
How am I suppose to be really happy?
I bet money dont.
I bet Love do.
But somewhat. I needa find someone who can do this.
But who?

OFf`~~~