It was Me. With The Rose I Gave You.

Identity Memoirs Exits Letters

Swallow me and spit me out
for hating you I'l shout out loud
seeing you it kills me now
no I don't cry on the outside somehow

Cold ~~Starry~~ night.

Yep. Thats me.
Hello. My name is Nur Idayu Bte Abdul Rahman. 14 goin' 15.
30th DEC 1994
Capricorn
Singapore
quake4_cloud@hotmail.com(MSN&FRIENDSTER). Music and Art is her life.
A Rapper,Dancer,B-Girl,Composer,Lyricist,Pianist.Guitarist.
A Little bit of tomboy but still have my girl me. Dont really give a damn about haters,backstabbers and etc(s).
Don't mess with my loved ones or you'll be messin' with me.
Sounds like im tryin' to be a big shot but NO.
Those who are close with me..Knows me very well in terms of fighting..
Loves :
Family = Mama,Daddy,Sister,Brother,Myself,Kor. Bestfriend = Aisyah. Him&Him = ED. Myself. =P
EDWARD CULLEN IS MINE. HEHE XD

I love goth & emo too. Dont ask me why.. Its my Vampire Bloodline. heh. ;D

I Froze The Time Today.

I Froze The Time Today.
I look back. I felt adrenalin rushing on my spine.
I saw my past. It was a dilemma for me.
I felt like going back. But deep inside my heart wants to move
forward. To be strong and not a coward. Yes. I'm heading on.
I'll be the one that I should be. The one I should have
thought of being from the past.
I saw whats coming up.
I know.
But it doesnt mean I cant change it.
But I'll take it slow.

My uncle just died this morning. I didn't slept the whole night and got a call from the police. I was the one who picked up the one. I frozed when he said this.
"Are you aware that your uncle has just passed away..?"
My sister was shouting at me asking who was it when my face tensed up.
"Its the fucking police! Our uncles dead! So shut up!"
I didn't meant to shout that to her. I was still caught up with my own problem.
I've got alot to face. And I know, I believe I can go through it.
Yeah. Thats it. Its about believing in yourself. Not giving up.
Yes. I frozed the time today. I was alone walking just now along the river nearby.
Nothing moved except the clear waters. I think back. I told myself.
I wont follow my emotions any longer I will move on and think rationally in the future. Emotions will just tear you apart from reality.

Just a random message to everyone out there.
Sorry If i didn't linked you up since centuries of decades. I'll try to do so as soon as possible. Hope you understand. yes. I saw Y3's blog just now.
Thanks bro. haha. Even you said I was a little noisy. At list I was still in your list. I appreciated that. =)

Well. I dont like bitches. BAstards. This is random I know. But I just saw something. Yeah. God.

I dunno now. I just felt that I want this to be the last post. After that.
My blog's gonna die. Forever. I suppose. Maybe.
I wanna stay away from some people as far as possible. I think. I dunno.
I just want to do so. Maybe. Forget it.