It was Me. With The Rose I Gave You.

Identity Memoirs Exits Letters

Swallow me and spit me out
for hating you I'l shout out loud
seeing you it kills me now
no I don't cry on the outside somehow

Cold ~~Starry~~ night.

Yep. Thats me.
Hello. My name is Nur Idayu Bte Abdul Rahman. 14 goin' 15.
30th DEC 1994
Capricorn
Singapore
quake4_cloud@hotmail.com(MSN&FRIENDSTER). Music and Art is her life.
A Rapper,Dancer,B-Girl,Composer,Lyricist,Pianist.Guitarist.
A Little bit of tomboy but still have my girl me. Dont really give a damn about haters,backstabbers and etc(s).
Don't mess with my loved ones or you'll be messin' with me.
Sounds like im tryin' to be a big shot but NO.
Those who are close with me..Knows me very well in terms of fighting..
Loves :
Family = Mama,Daddy,Sister,Brother,Myself,Kor. Bestfriend = Aisyah. Him&Him = ED. Myself. =P
EDWARD CULLEN IS MINE. HEHE XD

I love goth & emo too. Dont ask me why.. Its my Vampire Bloodline. heh. ;D

Replacement huh...?

Yeah. Let me blog this out.
Ive been having this thoughts for quite a long time.
But kept silence. haha.. yeah..
I think likewise. Someone felt as if my other friends are his/her replacement.
I wont mention whether its a she or he.
But yes. I think that way too. I dont ever regard em as his/her replacement.
But. At times. I felt he/her had found someone over the years as a replacement
of me. Nah. Not being sensetive. I'll rationalize it.
Everytime I'm not there. He/She will look upon the 'other me' for help.
Or simple just to hangout. Ok.
We'll forget about it.
I guess he/she loves it this way. I'll leave it that way then.
Don't wanna stress so much about it.
Yeah..
Heh.. Nah.. I'm okay.. I'm used to this situation.

Yeah. I changed my song. I know.
Am I here livin' a lie?
Except mines not a love story.
Its life.
~ And I cant tell nobody how I feel. ~
~ And I cant tell nobody how we is. ~

Thats what they say.
I'll agree with the first..
I'll change the second..
~ And I cant tell nobody how "IT" is ~

haha... yeah.. start my emo again?
Lol. No.
I dont think people will see my emo-side again.
At most when I'm thinking,and my face turn absolute serious.
haha.. yeah..

And I just donno why.. Because of what I've been through alot this while.
I'm beginning to lose the sense of feelings.
I'm just here trying to make someone smile.
But it looks like, heh..

Forget it aite.. I'm just sick of this.. heh..
yeah.
But no matter what. In EVERY relationship,friendship or whatever-ship.
We have to go through ups and downs.
In order to have a happy ending for it..
yep.
thats the moral behind this story for today..
lol..

I'm not gonna remorse over anything anymore. NO MORE.
heh.. dont say I'm heartless. I do still have a heart. But for MY LOVED ONES ONLY.

ONLY.

THEM.

ONLY!!!!!!!!!!!!

get it..? yeah.. heh..

Yeah..

Off~

N-Se7eN bast peoples life up.
Just shut up.
If you dont even know whats up.