It was Me. With The Rose I Gave You.

Identity Memoirs Exits Letters

Update? Or For Fun?

I've no idea what I'm suppose to post. lol.
Good thing tho. I'm so exhuasted.
Geok Teng. I'll link you soon. =)

Kkays!
Go then.
Just came back from chilling out.
God!
Heh!

The Pic? The Pain?!

HeyHey.
People. Thats not Daniel at my blogskin.
Alot of people out there thought thats him.
Nono. I wont put someone I know in school
as my blogskin cover ay. Thats bad.
Sigh..
Cant you guys see. the features is total diff. haha.
I'm not blaming my godbro. (Arwens) hehe.
He knows about it. lol.
And yeah.
If Daniel happened to read this.
Yo. Sorry hor, if it looks like ya.
hahha. Just someone I find attractive and mysterious
thats why.. haha.
Lol. Other than that. I'm saying this again.
Its Not Daniel. Thank you. =_=

So the girls out there. STOP PESTURING ME. zzz.
Zzz. Its pretty annoying ya know.

Ok ok. Err.
today. hmm. assembly really gross me out and made me speechless.
THAT was SOO Disgusting.

Ok.. Forget about it.
Oh wells. Noth much today.
the school today said that they're paying for me to go to the camp.
Shit. MUST I STILL GO?
Damn. nevermind.
And yeah.
Recently.
My Docter. Who knows about my Family in a sense of who we are.
Told me I had to stop consuming those stuffs. =_=
Shit. Whatever.
And my hormones changing. therefore.

*CENSORED!*

Ok. tomorrow's parade.
again. parade.
nevermind.
i shall voice out tomorrow.

aite.
im _____ to smile everytime i feel ____.
s'ok.
Hey Clara. Smile okay.
Andi you too.
The pain you're facing.
Is the pain I feel before. So I know how it feels like.
Dont worry.
Like I've said before.

A strong heart will only experience true happiness.
=)

A Brave Move. & A Mistake. I Had Made.

Once. Again.
I shall repeat this..
YOU FUCKING DUNNO ABT ME. SHUT THE FUCK UP & STOP GUDGING.
Thank you. It really pisses me..
Sigh..
Im writing this in Jap.
So up to you. Haha.. No text translator. Sad la.
Cant see the text. Sad la..
Haha.. Only for those who good in Jap..
But if you were to translate. It might be different from what I've written.

私は間違いをした。私の親友に溝を堀ることによって。
私は感じを取ることができない。その公正それ。
私は私が彼女に話す度に得たり従って追いついた。
彼女が述べなければならないその女の子の名前。
私は私が彼女にもう特別ではないことに感じた。
彼女は私に私が今でも彼女の親友であるという理由を与えた。
それは実際に彼女が彼女の名前を言い続けるとき私を離れて引き裂いた。
これはレズビアンの状態ではない。しかし友人。
そして私の家族はずっと私でこのとても態度を与えている。
神! 私はそれらを愛することを私することができるこの人々に知らせるために何が。それは私を深く中傷つける。
ため息。なぜか。

神なら、(アラー)。これの私を助けることができる。
実際に私は立つ勇気を与えることができ、皆にそれらは私へ言うために何かである。
そして私はそれらを傷つけることを意味しない。苦痛にもかかわらず私は直面している。私からのそれらへの愛は最初に来る。
私はまだ彼を愛する。そして私は新しいクラッシュを有している。
その私の感じが変わったことを知るためにまた私を傷つけること。
私はちょうど孤独に感じた。私の友人はずっと私へたわごとである。
しかしすべて。いくつか。これは私が期待したものではない。
原料はゆっくり殺害私である。一日一日と。

私は私でその信頼を必要とする。私は自分自身を必要とする。
私ができることを信じるため。
時々。私は私が実際にできることを信じるために単独で歩かなければならない。時々私は私を通って行く何もないことを考えた。しかし時私が過去を考える。私が感じた今何に。
私がいかに考えるか。私が私の未来をようにいかにが置いているかある。
私はだれでももう傷つけようとは思っていない。
No. 決して。私が。その公正な殺害私少しずつ。
私が感じた孤独。水から魚のように感じられる私。
私は私が知るのが常であった母を失った。私は私が過された楽しみの時間に使用するより古い姉妹を逃す。私は私があるべきである考えたが彼が粗悪品であること父を失った。
しかし私はまだ愛するには私がだれのためのであるか十分に幸運持っている私をできる弟をである。ちょうど誰か。愛するため私にあるものがのためのか私がだれのためのであるが、ない私を。

友人は利点を持つ友人のように私を作る。
彼らは認めない。私は従ってだけであることの使用されてある。
単独でつらい時で。私は実現すること。私は独立していい。
私は独立者にほしい。何人かの人々と混合する場合の傷つける原因。どういうわけか。
私はまだそれらを愛する。。

I made the move.
I made this mistake.
I've hurt the ones.
& thats gonna make my life at stake.

I finally realise that you were the one.
But I was wrong.
Forgive me.

At last I've realise. Not everything is Nice.
~OfF~

Where I Spill Every Single Feeling I Had...

Yes. Im an EMO.
Happy? I can't stand whats happening around here.
I'm glad I could still bring smiles at those faces that
I longed been loving em.
One thing I felt. One thing I saw. The only one thing I've heard.
Im not being appreciated. Im not being known after all the hard work.
No one loves my presence. Except a few. Thats if its true.
Its really making me falling out from everything im doing right now.

What power has love but forgiveness.
In other words by its intervention.
What has been done can be undone.
What good is it otherwise..?

Sigh. Im starting it again. I'm rapping out to let people know my pain.
tomorrows test. im not having any rest.
cause tonight will be the night.. im going out.. to find my happiness
sight. but instead. i thought i should stay. should not run away.
let the pain stain my heart. so i know.. why im really falling apart.
Some friends are arent like friends no more.
they have show me who they really are and pushed me out of the door.
love is another complication. a sensation. which i need my own protection.
to love ones loved by most. to be heartborken thousand times by the real cost.
to know that he wont be mine. to know thats there's alot of signs.
3 years love. now with A year another crush.
i took the dtour at that curve. hoping to see them so much.
but when i reached at the other end.
it was another test God sent.
family is the one i need. they're the ones who can lead me to succeed
in anything i do. mum,dad,sis,bro(s), do you guys know that i truely love you?
let me ask this, why's that ive got diss.
everytime i need one. there's none.
this song sung by Keshia Cole, with the title Falling Out.
Is stuck in my head and i dont feel like screaming but just to shout.
why's this happening. again & again.
the pain.
no one understands.

now is about me.
about why im not happy.
lets start with friends. the ones i can no longer depend. on.
anything. even a little thing. they're just having this ego shit thingy.
which makes them think " I AM KING ".
God. there's no longer a way I could made them realise.
Ive no rights either. Its their life. So I shall not bother.
But in anything anyone do.
No worries.
You're forgiven.
Just left memories.
that are left to be written.
down. in my history book.
with four chapters that i took.
Chapter 1. Friends - good thing ive got only a few.
Chapter 2. Love - I dont know what I should do. cause i love you too.
Chapter 3. Family - I need you guys.
Chapter 4. Myself - I'm lost in my FUCKING paradise.

But please you guys.. I really appreciate some of you out there who's always
been there for me.. But i need to see. That you guys are really beggin me to stay.
or not. Im planning to walk away..
cause im really slowy falling..
i hope you guys know what im talking..
cause there's this big secret im gonna tell..
im not what you see in your eyes.
im not a liar who's trying to be someone else in disguise.
im not someone who you could take it easily..
cause i can tell you.. that im not even those funny joker and crazy.
If only..
if..
only..

sigh.. just dont let pride get into your way guys..
that just dont work.
there's nothing you can buy.
cause its just gonna make you ended up looking like a jerk..

im stopping here right now..
somehow..
im gonna let go..
whats real..
whats for show..
not whats for sale..
but the things that i should do.
like telling all of you no matter what.
im still loving you.

goodbye..

p.s: Haru Haru...

Valentine's Day? Am I Still In Love? But With Who?

FINALLY.
Finish Editing.
Oh god. My Valentine's Day was wonderful.
It was great. Seriously. First, went to Sentosa with my
beloved ones!!! haha. IT WAS FUN SERIOUSLY!!
haha. ok. cut short. lol.

Soon. I will talk about it.

Hmm. yeah.
Read My title??
Yeah.
SHIAT.
I'm confused. Mayb yes or no.
No. Im sure.
I still love him.
No matter what....
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK IT. WHATS THIS?
IDAYU!?
Listen to your heart.
I cant make it better.
Whatever. I cant take the feeling. Oh God.
I'm not gonna see someone for 2 years plus. I wonder
how I'm gonna survive. SHIT LA.
SHITTY CASE LA SIA!!
WAHLAO.
Forget it. I'm not gonna talk about it.
Dont ask me why I'm attitude in sch. I got alot of probs so SHUT UP.

Okay. Yeah. People,I link all of you alr. Sorry for the late thingy.
I wish I could have more time to blog. Oh well.
Okay. Other than that during V Day.
Went to O School.
haha. It was fun tho. As usual. haha. =PP
Oh wellllssss..
Then planned to go Studio Wu but too late.
zz it was alr nearing to 7. zzz . =_=

Oh wells. Yeah. I've changed the song.
Its My Very First Beats Album. Called. ~SILENCE~
Well. yeah. I hope you enjoy the 1st Track of the Album.

Oh well.. yeah.. haha..
Gosh.. This IS the BIGGEST DISTRACTION OF ALL...
This IS.
I'm not talking bout the song.
But an Incident.

Haish..
I'm dedicating this to someone..
If you are still with her...
Yeah..

Baby I just don't get it
Do you enjoy being hurt?
I know you smelled the perfume, the make-up on her shirt
You don't believe her stories
You know that they're all lies
Bad as you are, you stick around and I just don't know why...

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you, love you
Yeah yeah..

God... been 3 years sia...
heh.. no hope la, idayu...
just forget about it aite...
forget it....

love you...
________...

From..
Idayu..
Hearts XOXO

THIS BLOG IS UNDERGOING MAINTAINENCE.

Sorry for this
HORRIFYING

NEWS
.

But YES My blog is undergoing this HEAVY Maintainence.

I'm sorry. But It'll be back as soon as possible.
Due to the current state I'm in.
I'll be back by two weeks time.

Aw,Come on. I've got tests,trainings,muster parades,meetings and settling my clients(ehem2).

So p[ease understand my delicasy situation and once again sorry because I can't
make you guys feel complacent about this.

I hereby announ that THIS BLOG, SAPHIRA-FORESHADOWS.BLOGSPOT.COM, is CLOSE for a moment.

THANK YOU FOR YOUR KIND AND GENOROUS CO-OPERATION. =)

P.S : Each set Sold separately. ^^
P.S.S : Tagboard is still open! (me: YAY! ME!)
P.S.S.S : Don't tell anyone this..SHH. I'm GAY!HAHA.(me:Pls ar. GAY=HAPPY)
P.S.S.S.S.S : But yet still.. The truth is still sealed in me..
P.S.S.S.S : If only you know..
P.S.S.S : I've got a confession to make.. to...
P.S.S : you.. only you.. YES. you..
P.S : I LOVE YOU POCKY STRAWBERRY!!!! (me: ku-li-co!)---> GLICO.

TATA! =DDD Enjoy You "NICE" school days.
(me: urgh.. lalal XD)