It was Me. With The Rose I Gave You.

Identity Memoirs Exits Letters

Swallow me and spit me out
for hating you I'l shout out loud
seeing you it kills me now
no I don't cry on the outside somehow

Cold ~~Starry~~ night.

Yep. Thats me.
Hello. My name is Nur Idayu Bte Abdul Rahman. 14 goin' 15.
30th DEC 1994
Capricorn
Singapore
quake4_cloud@hotmail.com(MSN&FRIENDSTER). Music and Art is her life.
A Rapper,Dancer,B-Girl,Composer,Lyricist,Pianist.Guitarist.
A Little bit of tomboy but still have my girl me. Dont really give a damn about haters,backstabbers and etc(s).
Don't mess with my loved ones or you'll be messin' with me.
Sounds like im tryin' to be a big shot but NO.
Those who are close with me..Knows me very well in terms of fighting..
Loves :
Family = Mama,Daddy,Sister,Brother,Myself,Kor. Bestfriend = Aisyah. Him&Him = ED. Myself. =P
EDWARD CULLEN IS MINE. HEHE XD

I love goth & emo too. Dont ask me why.. Its my Vampire Bloodline. heh. ;D

Now That You're Gone..

Recently went chillin' out with
Daniel, Author, Wen Ting, Chang Wei, with Winnie, Wen Qing and Atikah they all.
There are more tho. But aren't too sure what their names are. heh..
Yep. It was nice tho.
At least I learn something, still owe a song for someone to listen to when sch re-opens.. lol..

yeah.
someone's gone.
got upset tho I've forgotten to give someone his card.
argh!
forget it.
when i'm sec 5 then his back.. yeah.. great..
heh..
He's like my brother alr.
Someone who I held close like a part of the family.
one of the friends I had that I could trust.
sigh..

Now.. I've fallen for someone.
Thats out of the story.
Honestly speaking.
I dislike people who dunno a single thing bout me and my life then when I began to do something, that person wants to kpo and disturb it.
I also dislike people who wants something and they get it through me.
Self- hardwork dude. Seriously.
I'm not your weapon. I'm just a normal human being.
I myself dislike doing the same action and therefore I expect it the same way for some of you. You guys really need to back up and do it yourself.
But for those who I said I would help. I will help.
Thats all.

Ok back to the topic.
Now that you're gone bro. I have noth to say.
I've fallen for this guy. I wouldn't want it to be a hurtful way.
I know and I heard what people was saying.
Stop it.
I had enough of hearing what people said.
When I dont force it but i just do hear it.
I wont do what you guys ask me to do.
I wont listen.

Today, I had a walk down the block when it was breaking dawn.
It was raining though.
I reminisce the past I had.
The happy ones and the bad.
After everything I've gone through for now.
I remembered bout some stuffs somehow.
I'm no more afraid to be alone.

There was three things I was absolutely positive.

First, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him.

Second, I wasn't afraid of anything anymore & I've planned a new life ahead.

Third, Its true I wasn't afraid of anything anymore but except one.

~|I'm afriad of losing you..|~

I remembered I've all the time I want to do my stuffs.
But is there any time I could do something with you?
Maybe even just to sit and look at the night sky for one night.
Maybe even just to hear your voice everytime I said hi.
To just smile even though how painful is to bring up one when I know
there's no chance at all cause we're two different things.

But even just if you look again at me like how you did the other time.
Right in front of me, that look, when our faces was just a few centimetres away.
If its impossible then show me cause I feel your pain when I look in yours,
and I know you feel mine cause It was too obvious for you.

Shuts.
Once again. I'm emo as usual.
Nothing I could say. Cause everyday, even there's something happy happened to me.
Behind those happiness I see real pain.
Thats why there was only little happiness gain.
Sigh..

What If all of you know the real thing about me.
What If my friends know about it too.
And what If knowing about me, you eventually did too.

I frozed. I looked at the time.
Maybe I should leave.
Anyways. I won't be around for some days.
I'm out of town.
So maybe It'll be a little of some time alone.
Anything.
Do not contact me.

Off..