Identity Memoirs Exits Letters

Swallow me and spit me out
for hating you I'l shout out loud
seeing you it kills me now
no I don't cry on the outside somehow

Cold Starry night.


Yep. Thats me.
Hello. My name is Nur Idayu Bte Abdul Rahman. 14 goin' 15.
30th DEC 1994
Capricorn
Singapore
quake4_cloud@hotmail.com(MSN&FRIENDSTER). Music and Art is her life.
A Rapper,Dancer,B-Girl,Composer,Lyricist,Pianist.Guitarist.
A Little bit of tomboy but still have my girl me. Dont really give a damn about haters,backstabbers and etc(s).
Don't mess with my loved ones or you'll be messin' with me.
Sounds like im tryin' to be a big shot but NO.
Those who are close with me..Knows me very well in terms of fighting..
Loves :
Family = Mama,Daddy,Sister,Brother,Myself,Kor. Bestfriend = Aisyah. Him&Him = ED. Myself. =P
EDWARD CULLEN IS MINE. HEHE XD


I love goth & emo too. Dont ask me why.. Its my Vampire Bloodline. heh. ;D

A CHOREOGRAPHER.
A PIANIST.
An ARTIST.
An AUTHOR.
BASICALLY.

ANYTHING GOT TO DO WITH ART AND MUSIC.


Hip-Hop's my life. Seriously.


This is it.











This is My Last Requiem For A Dream.
No one is ever to INTERFERE.
DO NOT INTERFERE.
I WARNED YOU.

I can even KILL YOU IF YOU DO THAT.
I'm not JOKING.
I'm WAY SERIOUS.



Yes....
This is me......
This is it...

THIS JOURNEY OF BEING AND KNOWING WHO I REALLY AM.
IS EVERYTHING to ME.





Get away from stepping in.
If you wanna help,
you better tell me where have you been.
If you have any intentions.
to destroy my temptations.
your life's gonna have convulsion.
and its up to my sensation.
to put you through the misery.
cause you have thrown away what i see.

get it..?











Something made me realize.
this is not what i fantasize.
this is gonna be a reality.
This is what I'M GONNA BE.














OFF.


Hey Aisyah.
Thanks for being there when I'm emo just now.
Seriously girl, thank you for it yeah...
I really dunno what to do if I hadn't got you.
Thanks for being my best friend.
I love you men.
Take care always yeah sis?
Love ya.

P.S : I'll change my cover to the pics that we took. love ya sis!
Ayu your pathetic best friend. =)





This is for Jay.
Jay...
Please.
This is driving me insane.
Just one more. Without you I can't function no more.
I just can't step out of my front door.
I can't do what I need to do.
I can't be who am I.
Hardest thing about this confession is I just ruin what we have, But I don't wanna lose what we got
But it's a chance I'll have to take, pleasee...
Don't wanna spend my whole life wonderin' what it feels like
Bein' there beside you and kissin' on you all night

This is something I wanna rhyme about.
Remember I said i'm gonna make a song for you?
This is one of em.
Here goes noth..

[verse 1]
See I been makin' a mistake.. oh no.....
ohh god.. just give me one chance.
im pleadin you.. im holding this pain,
even when I walked out of the door.

I just can't breathe the moment you said,
"I'm sorry"
I can't forgive myself for the mistake i've made,
even tho you said you still wanna see me happy.
i'll be only happy,
when you're with me.

[chorus]
lets dont talk about where are we.
lets talk about you & me.
oh baby, oh please.
im begging you, this pain is like a disease.
i need the cure ,
and that'll be your,
your laughter, your voice, your smiles,
I dont care how far we are in miles.
right now
what i needed the most somehow.
is you.
Just give me one more chance.
just give me one more chance.
to prove to you that i love you.

[verse 2]
baby, i can't afford to be the one who hurts you.
i can't afford to lose you.
but why this has to happen.
when i've fallen.
for someone who's like a my guardian angel.
when i've fallen.
for someone who knows how to love a girl.
and make her feel this place is like a wonderful world.

[chorus]

please dont say that. i need you..
right now..
one more chance. just one more..
i wanna see like what we are before...
just like before..

[End]


I listen to the song that you dedicated for me.
I remembered this...

~You like surprises..
I like you..~


Sigh...
i just dunno what to do..

love you...





P.S: My GameMaster, I'll put your design into my collage also. i will always love ya hun.







Off....

- AiSyAh!!BeSTFRiENd4eVer.^^
- Aini.:)
- Afifah.PrIBuDd.:))
- Akmal.BudDy.(:
- Amanda.XcuteMa'am.(:
- AnDi.MyLoVABLEBro(:
- N'Anyssa.ChinGAYBABE(:
- Arwen.MyBEStPaRtNer(BrO).:D
- AtiQAh.ThEChInEsEExPERt.;)
- Amirah:DD.BestBuddy!
- BeA."FlYinGcArPaRk"=)
- Benjamin.MySyiOksiR.=)
- BenSOn.HAHAHA XD
- ChInwee:D
- ChingNa.SiSteRrForEver!!;)
- ChiuPinG.DaROCK1.;D
- Chloe.GodSis.;>
- ClArA!SiSteRForEvER:D
- DiaN.BuDDy!:D
- EbAl!!MyFaVGdBrO&DAnCEOPaL=>
- EvElYn.meSCHmate(:
- FariZaH!XBTYN!(:
- GaWai.SquadMate(:
- GeOkTenG.JuNioR.=X
- HayaTi.BesTfrIend.^^
- HazIq.MeBuDDY4eVer.:D
- HisyaM.GodBro.:D
- IzzuaNd0.NCC(a)SenIor.XD
- Jaime.Senior;))
- JasLyN.The'TrAIn'FingErS=)
- 'JeChiEl!ATCBuDdy=)
- JuAnNe!MyFaVPsL=)
- Ji Siang.NCCSenior.(^,^)
- JiAhUa.MyCRAZYncO:>
- JiAyu.MeJuNIOR.=)
- JoSh.mebuddyFrmDF:P
- Joshua.MyEMOnco>.<
- Kale.Squadmate.x)
- K-Hai-Ri.FtPpSbUd.;)
- NaZ.PrIScHBud=)
- NicolE.PiAnOBudDy=)
- Nevin.GodBro.^.^
- Nicholas.NCCSenior.^-^
- MicKiE.MyBeSTJumPEr. =D
- QiUtIng.OPM XD
- Rena.GodSis.XD
- SeOwLinG.xBaND/teMpTeACheR.x)
- ShAnGmInG.ApPlEgUY:)<
- Sheila.BeStBudIes:)
- SiYi.SquaDmaTE.:)
- TiffaNy.SwiMgfwen><
- VaLerie.FtPpS:)
- VaLerie.1e3.:)
- WeeKeat.President07*.')
- XinHuI.SeNioR'))
- YaOyUaN.MyBroThErFoREVer.=D
- Zane.Senior.')
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The LOVE. The#2 Under Maintainence.
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