It was Me. With The Rose I Gave You.

Identity Memoirs Exits Letters

Only Allah Knows My Sufferings.

I went back home.
Stare the ceiling, looking at the sky paint
my house had.
I wonder who else hears my pain.
Glad, happy?
Yes, I believe people will start to go to me and say
"Why are you in pain?"
"Why didn't you share it with me?"
One thing I will ONLY answer...
The pain that only God can understand those words I can't spill.
The feeling I can't describe..

But after I watch alot of different kind of shows.
Showing me different kind of lives..
I learnt alot.
You know even cartoons teaches me what really life is all about.
Look back in the past, the bad and the good ones.
what have you learnt..?
What made you what you are now..?
I believe in failing.
Yes. That makes you think, learnt. Succeed in what you failed before.
But if you don't, its your lost. Cuz its your game.
I definitely learnt alot.
And I'm writing this out to share what I felt.

You know most common phrases people love to say it around like,
"Expect the Unexpected"
"Success comes by failure"
"Believe In Yourself In Order to Succeed"
"Visions without action, is just dreams. Actions without visions is just waste of time. But Visions with actions changes the world."

Is what you hear everyday.
But I got this. Its not by me.
But read it... Feel and think about it..

"If I am not for myself, who will be for me?
If I am not for others, what am I?
And if not now, when?"
~ Rabbi Hillel

"Finish every day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense. This day is all that is good and fair. It is too dear, with its hopes and invitations, to waste a moment on yesterdays."
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Inspiration does not come from the quote itself, but rather the person behind it."
~Russ Myers

After all pain I face.
I slowly learnt.
You need pain, to be stronger. To learn.
You need to fail to succeed. To learn.

During A Journey. Any journey.
Take Note of the place,time,people,weather, just everything. Especially YOURSELF.
Cuz what matters.
How did you get to the place?
What time was it? Morning, afternoon? Night? Times of Suffering? Pain? Sorrow..?
Who was involve? How were they? Nice? Were they supporting you?
Weather? Wonder why the weather plays a part?
cuz it shows how you handle the situation? How you endure it.
Jus imagine you got lost in the forest and it was raining heavily.
It testes you. And imagine you were with a companion.
You have to look after him/her. It will let out you character, compassion.
Even commitment in continuing the journey.

Now what I've learnt.
Yes, pain. After all.
Don't depend on people to much. Evn your family.
Cuz they are only there to support.
Look back at times when you were small.
Count how many times you fall. And how many times there were hands infront of you
helping you to get up?
You will realise you get up by yourself more than ppl helping out.
}But if not. You got to back up. Can't live forever like this..
Cuz when you die, you die alone. Your life. Your story. You're th main cast.
Wrong dialogue, wrong story line. Wrong act, you screw up.
so think men..
this is what I wanna share..
What i've learnt.

"People said that think 10 steps ahead for your future its good.
I say, no.
I say, Think about the first step that you gonna take to go to the tenth.
Cuz if you step wrongly the first, the other 9, you will fall. "
~ Myself ~

Something Inspirational.

I saw this video.
I felt something about..
I Love what the old man said.
It struck me a million arrows men.
Inspires me. When I LOVE MUSIC & ART sooo much.
I wanna master piano & guitar.

Just look at what the old man says to the kid when she asked him.

"Why Am I Different From The Others...?"
I think the lady who bullied her, the one can play piano.
Can't even play it properly.. Lol..
Not trying to act big, But i think even my small bro can play better. =P

Yeah.. haha. Its a commercial on a Shampoo.
But its a good one for those who less fortunate to play music.
Don't underestimate them.
This is what I call talent...
PURE talent... ;)

Watch this.

Sigh.
I'll be a good Guitarist & A Pianist one fine day.
I'll bring all my loved ones to watch a performance I made specially
for them.. =)
Even my friends. ^^

God.. Im sooooo into Music & Arts.
I just LOVE IT.
=D

Okok. I wanna make a song right now..
=) Shall dismiss myself. Haha. =)

Kkays.
^-^

~ "Why Do You Have To Be Like The Others?" ~
=)

Twilight? New Moon?

Yeah.
I'm A MANIAC OF TWILIGHT SAGA.
Yes, haha.

You know why I like it?
It resembles on whats going on right now..
again.
Like his the Edward and I' the Bella.
The first day of Sec 3 life is like I've just got transfer to
a new school.
With new classmates and stuffs.
And thats when I saw him...
Yes, him..
we got those weird gaze on at each other and stuffs.
Sigh...
and yadayadayada.
But we didnt went together thats the BIG difference.

And in New Moon.
like recently..
He disappeared suddnly, didnt reply my msgs, didnt smile at me..
didnt even look at me, not even an inch glance.
he gave a reason...
Its because of His "OWL". those who watch harry potter get what I mean.
And when he's gone...
Someone else was there for me...
Sighh...

UGHHH....
And now during June,
he was there in the beginning... And now he's gone...
And he's back..
Im not saying he's bad..
& I dont care what anyone else wanna say about him...

Cause I just love the way he is.. =)

I'm back obsessed in THE TWILIGHT SAGA. =P
Sigh... but Im still sad about it....
Dont think I have hope with...
I dont deserve him.. He's too good for me..
But Thank God, you let me get to know him.. =)

~ GoodBye...

ALAS! It's Over.

Yes. After decades of not posting and updating about my shitty life.
Gonna tell ya guys, I did survive!
This bloody two days courses.
That made me dreamt about beautiful dying horses.

SHUTS men.
Seriously.
Sigh. I'm pissed with that skin on top that I've just changed!
ITS BLUR!
I DUNNO WHY IT DID WORK THIS TIME!!!!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

ok cut it out.
ughh.
Yeah. Tired, yes?
Sleepy, no?
God..

I planned to post something again..
Something most of my readers would know about me.
Something that I do, that could make me happy.
HEre it Goes again.
This is about what happened in the past and whats im gonna do now..

Seems like yesterday we use to rock the flow,
I lace the tracks you got the door,
and,
my life is what now you see,
this is no fun, this is reality.
What I do is what I present,
what I like, I just dont need your consent.
Reminisce sometime, when the thrash my story,
walking alone in their streets of glory.

And right now, I stopped, Im not dumb, Im not stupid.
Im not being harass or push around by those love cupids.
I got one purpose in life.
And that is to survive.
Im ignorin' all those bastards and bitches.
Thats hatin' me with all those face-switches!

I got one thing to say,
If you dont like me in a way.
And I would just call it your day.
Your day of me making it "sway".
I would appreciate if you said it up front.
Dont be shock, and Dont be stunned.
Cuz if u insisted,
I'm gonna cock it and shoot you with my gun.
Haha..

Im damn bored right now,
spillin' shits somehow.
Drowsy, tired, lets take a bow
As the show is over right now.
OW OW.

Gosh.. Im DAMNNN Bored......
hahaha.

DAMMIT.

SAY IT.

FORGET IT.

I MISSSSSSSSSSS SLeepin. =PP

Off.. ~~