It was Me. With The Rose I Gave You.

Identity Memoirs Exits Letters

Swallow me and spit me out
for hating you I'l shout out loud
seeing you it kills me now
no I don't cry on the outside somehow

Cold ~~Starry~~ night.

Yep. Thats me.
Hello. My name is Nur Idayu Bte Abdul Rahman. 14 goin' 15.
30th DEC 1994
Capricorn
Singapore
quake4_cloud@hotmail.com(MSN&FRIENDSTER). Music and Art is her life.
A Rapper,Dancer,B-Girl,Composer,Lyricist,Pianist.Guitarist.
A Little bit of tomboy but still have my girl me. Dont really give a damn about haters,backstabbers and etc(s).
Don't mess with my loved ones or you'll be messin' with me.
Sounds like im tryin' to be a big shot but NO.
Those who are close with me..Knows me very well in terms of fighting..
Loves :
Family = Mama,Daddy,Sister,Brother,Myself,Kor. Bestfriend = Aisyah. Him&Him = ED. Myself. =P
EDWARD CULLEN IS MINE. HEHE XD

I love goth & emo too. Dont ask me why.. Its my Vampire Bloodline. heh. ;D

Only Allah Knows My Sufferings.

I went back home.
Stare the ceiling, looking at the sky paint
my house had.
I wonder who else hears my pain.
Glad, happy?
Yes, I believe people will start to go to me and say
"Why are you in pain?"
"Why didn't you share it with me?"
One thing I will ONLY answer...
The pain that only God can understand those words I can't spill.
The feeling I can't describe..

But after I watch alot of different kind of shows.
Showing me different kind of lives..
I learnt alot.
You know even cartoons teaches me what really life is all about.
Look back in the past, the bad and the good ones.
what have you learnt..?
What made you what you are now..?
I believe in failing.
Yes. That makes you think, learnt. Succeed in what you failed before.
But if you don't, its your lost. Cuz its your game.
I definitely learnt alot.
And I'm writing this out to share what I felt.

You know most common phrases people love to say it around like,
"Expect the Unexpected"
"Success comes by failure"
"Believe In Yourself In Order to Succeed"
"Visions without action, is just dreams. Actions without visions is just waste of time. But Visions with actions changes the world."

Is what you hear everyday.
But I got this. Its not by me.
But read it... Feel and think about it..

"If I am not for myself, who will be for me?
If I am not for others, what am I?
And if not now, when?"
~ Rabbi Hillel

"Finish every day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense. This day is all that is good and fair. It is too dear, with its hopes and invitations, to waste a moment on yesterdays."
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Inspiration does not come from the quote itself, but rather the person behind it."
~Russ Myers

After all pain I face.
I slowly learnt.
You need pain, to be stronger. To learn.
You need to fail to succeed. To learn.

During A Journey. Any journey.
Take Note of the place,time,people,weather, just everything. Especially YOURSELF.
Cuz what matters.
How did you get to the place?
What time was it? Morning, afternoon? Night? Times of Suffering? Pain? Sorrow..?
Who was involve? How were they? Nice? Were they supporting you?
Weather? Wonder why the weather plays a part?
cuz it shows how you handle the situation? How you endure it.
Jus imagine you got lost in the forest and it was raining heavily.
It testes you. And imagine you were with a companion.
You have to look after him/her. It will let out you character, compassion.
Even commitment in continuing the journey.

Now what I've learnt.
Yes, pain. After all.
Don't depend on people to much. Evn your family.
Cuz they are only there to support.
Look back at times when you were small.
Count how many times you fall. And how many times there were hands infront of you
helping you to get up?
You will realise you get up by yourself more than ppl helping out.
}But if not. You got to back up. Can't live forever like this..
Cuz when you die, you die alone. Your life. Your story. You're th main cast.
Wrong dialogue, wrong story line. Wrong act, you screw up.
so think men..
this is what I wanna share..
What i've learnt.

"People said that think 10 steps ahead for your future its good.
I say, no.
I say, Think about the first step that you gonna take to go to the tenth.
Cuz if you step wrongly the first, the other 9, you will fall. "
~ Myself ~